It’s a new week and Bobby and I are busy helping out as the fourth grade leaders for our VBS. I’ve never been a leader before, but what fun it is! We get to go around to each station with all our kids: snacks, games, and more! When our group was up for songs I looked around and wondered if any of the kids were having as much fun as I was. I also really enjoyed hearing the Bible story of Gideon as the teachers acted out a creative story session as if we were Gideon’s army fighting the Mideonites from Judges chapter seven.

It’s amazing how all that fun can wear a person out, but I managed to get some other things done today as well. We enjoyed our regular Monday night dinner fellowshipping together with our close friends. Missy was even filled in on some of the up and coming Godsong music, songs that are still in the making and yet to be available at the site.

I had a humbling conversation with a friend today in which I realized just how prone I am to inconsistency. I complain of being left out of other’s circles and yet keep my own exclusively closed. I don’t want people to judge me, but I am quick to do so of them. I even wonder why people don’t update their blogs but I don’t keep mine current. It is actually pretty easy to be inconsistent. I read a quote by Horace Smith that said, “Inconsistency is the only thing in which men are consistent.” I am glad that this is not the way that God desires His children to be. Daily I am learning to keep my words and actions closer in line, love my neighbor as myself (Matthew 22:39) and give my heart undivided to the Lord.

It is a serious accusation to be called a hypocrite. I distinctly remember a situation when I was in college where I sat at my desk talking with a friend on my phone while my roommate could hear me across the room. I praised my friend and the news that she was sharing, but shortly after we said goodbye another friend called and asked me what I thought of our mutual friend’s plans and to her I scrutinized and harshly criticized them. The next day my roommate brought this scenario to my attention and gently stated that she was very discouraged when she heard such hypocrisy coming from me. I was shamed and humbled at this realization. I know that some of this is still in me today. I say one thing, do another. I agree in word and deed but in heart feel that I’ve compromised. I act happy when I am really sad. How awful to think that God is looking beneath the skin and seeing double-mindedness and a divided heart. His own child trying to live for the world and for Him. God knows the truth, if I am playing a game or really living for Him. He knows my attitudes, desires, and thoughts. Knowing that the Lord of the universe sees right to the core of my duplicity is a powerful motivation to make these verses the prayerful cry of my heart: