Another wonderful week has come and gone. Tyler is almost three weeks old now and Bobby and I can already see how he is growing and changing! He has gained a pound and a few ounces and grown half an inch or so. He doesn’t like being swaddled anymore, but would rather have his arms free to move. His skin doesn’t look so red anymore and his eyes focus easily on our faces and objects that are close enough. Being a parent really reminds me that life is one big learning process. Each day we see new things in Tyler, learn to interpret his cries and sounds and figure out what best comforts him. I love being able to be home to take care of him. I have to remind myself to take the “sleep-when-he-sleeps” advice so many moms gave me. It is fascinating to watch this new little person. I love how he smiles and even laughs sometimes in his sleep. But when I catch a couple of two hour naps here and there during the day, it really does make all the difference!

Now that I’m more comfortable having a baby to take care of 24/7, I’m figuring out how to do that and still get things done around the house–clean the bathroom, do the laundry, load the dishwasher–so far what I’m doing is working fine. I even got my big grocery shopping trip taken care of. In this day and age you can do all your grocery shopping for a reasonable price, online! I went to Safeway.com and did my normal big stock-the-kitchen shopping, including produce, frozen foods, and meats. I placed the order online in the morning and that afternoon all my groceries were brought right to my front door. It was fabulous!

I contine to value Tyler’s feeding times to read and pray. One big thing that has become clear as day to me is the reality of Jesus’ statement, “The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.” (Matthew 26:41) Jesus said this to His disciples when they were too tired to stay awake to pray. There have been times these couple of weeks that I’ve felt like this. It doesn’t really matter how hard I try to stay awake or how much I want to get done, I can only do so much. Our bodies are so weak, so limited. We have things that we need and if they don’t get met we become even more weak–sleep, food, companionship. Sometimes I can fool myself into thinking I can do it on my own. But I really couldn’t do anything without the Lord providing all I need to accomplish the tasks He has given to me. Dependance on the Lord is very freeing. It frees us to trust and not worry, to obey without excuses.