[1] We spent Sunday and Monday at the “happiest place on earth”–Disneyland! Tyler has been to Disneyland already, in fact, this was his fifth visit! His favorite attractions are It’s a Small World, the Jungle Cruise and the Winnie the Pooh ride. Bobby, Tyler and I along with Bobby’s brothers Ben and Billy and Billy’s wife, Cory gathered to celebrate my mother-in-law’s 50th birthday, and Mother’s Day. Usually on someone’s birthday you give them a gift, but they gave us season passes to Disneyland, so it sure felt like a celebration we will enjoy all year! Click [2] here to see more pictures!

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the idea of spiritual apathy. It is an easy pit to fall into–to become lazy and undisciplined in pursuit of the Lord. I was feeling discouraged about seeing this in others, and also myself. It’s frustrating to be talking to someone who is well-informed on all the specifics about the latest Lost episode, but when I mention our daily Bible reading I get an “I actually don’t have time to do that.” Seriously? How is it that we don’t have time for God? I am convinced that this has much more to do with our hearts than our schedules.

In a study I was working on today I looked up the word “integrity” and was profoundly struck by the it’s definition.

in·teg·ri·ty

the quality or state of being complete or undivided

When I read this definition I was convicted. It is all too easy to have an appearance of godliness–to talk like a Christian, to warm a chair, to carry a Bible. It is very hard work to have a quality of heart that is complete and undivided toward the Lord. The opposite of spiritual apathy is spiritual integrity.

Spiritual integrity means that hearing God’s Word and doing God’s Word are inseparable. This kind of person is worshiping the Lord all hours on weekdays, not just the first 20-minutes of the church service. It means not succumbing to the idols that reign in most lives but living surrendered to the Lord. Having integrity spiritually means that we pray “Your will be done” and aren’t thinking in the back of our minds “But I hope what I want to happen works out…”

I started asking the Lord how could I grow to have this kind of integrity in my life and tonight I remembered Psalm 86:11 and this is my prayer, I hope it is yours too…

Teach me your way, O LORD,
and I will walk in your truth;
give me an undivided heart,
that I may fear your name.